regreting , desperate !!

i need a space !
this regreting totally makes me desperate !!!


i have no other choice , this is my decision , this is my fault ..
So?? yah let it go ..

what future will brings

4 years ago , i was a new student in my beloved campus :P
but now i'm an old student but many people said that i'm still like a student in senior high school
aaw aw aw
*Joke

so , now i'm trying hard to get my bachelor's degree :)
Even "that's not mine yet" i've already thought about what will i do after I graduated ?
Continue study ? Getting Job ? or getting married?
eaaaaaaaaaa ,hahahahahhaha
no one knows what future will brings
But i have a sweet dream , Obviously, i wanna make my familiy proud of me :)
Yes , that's what everbody wants !

A lecturer ?
it seems to me a good idea to be a lecturer, yeah everybody knows that my father is a lecturer :)
And i'm totally proud to be his daughter :)
Ang from my point of view , being a lecturer is very interesting , especially for a woman :)
But i don't know what will happened into my life , we may have a plan , and we have to execute all of our plan to reach what we wanted :)
Believe in God , God will give us the best things for our life :)

And for you, my man...
Time will answer all of our pray
hope our dreams will come true
*with love*

LIKE STRANGER

Kinda weird
when i've to pretend like i didn't know you
Like yesterday, when i meet you
you seemed like stranger for me

Even i realize that all i have is just memories !!
you'd never know how much i'm falling
The pain is strong enough despite

HAPPY GRADUATION One Of My Best :*

HAPPY GRADUATION MY BEST FRIEND :*
Congratulation, hope you'll get everything that you want

yeaahh , both of my best friends have already finished their study !
What about me??
I'm still trying to finish my final report, hopefully september will be mine

did you know that my parents always push me to graduate soon ?
For me , it makes me feel  so oppressed!
even i give many reasons , they didn't want understand

Burnt Out, it can be like this !
errrrrrrrrrrr , i'm so stressful right now
Trust me MOM DAD , i will do everything for you
But please , give your a bit understanding for me
Dont make me feel like i'm the one who's very stupid!
don't you know that now i'm so sad , so pleaseeeee don't compare me with everyone


Back to my first writing , look at this picture below...

Again and again , i just wanna say "CONGRATULATION for both of you , my best friends "
Jangannn ajaa gk dateng klo gw wisudaa september atau desemeber tahun ini hahahahaha
*HUG*KISS

TRAGEDI SUKHOI

Yaps , Indonesia lagi-lagi berkabung
untuk kesekian kalinya terjadi kecelakan pesawat terbang !
wahh gw bner2 merinding
Cuba deh lo bayangin klo kita yang ada di posisi "penumpang" pesawat SUKHOI yang jatuh di sekitaran Gunung Salak, Bogor
Naudzubilahminzalik, itu pasti sangat menakutkan , menyeramkan !

itu satu peringatan juga buat kita , dan saya khususnya klo "ajal" udah dateng mau dimanapun , kapanpun , dlm kondisi apapun , gk ada yang bisa ngehindarinya !

hmm , balik lg ke tragedi SUKHOI .
Gw bner2 berharap ada keajaiban, klo salah satu penumpang bisa selamat.
Gw yang nonton beritanya aja sampai netesin air mata , apalgi keluargaaa yang ditinggalin
Subhanallah , klo Allah sudah berkehendak , secanggih apapun bikinan manusia tidak akan pernah sebanding dengan ciptaan Tuhan.
Tidak akan ada yang bisa menghindari kehendak TUHAN .

Kemarin sore , gw nonton berita di salah satu stasiun TV , gw ngliat anak dari salah satu penumpang SUKHOI, yang masih kecil2 bangetttt.. bner deh , gw gk bohong . gw bner2 miris ngliatnya .
yahh PASTINYA mreka berharap ayahnya selamat dari tragedi SUKHOI itu !
dan begitupun saya , gw sangatt berharap ada keajaiban yang ALLAH kasih .
AMIN

keep FIGHTING

Good evening my beloved followers :)
tonight i'm blogging with my beauty smile,hahahahaa
i'm very thankful to god who always give me everything that i need !
Now, i aware that i'm enough stupid if i just complained about "something" ..
i don't need to worried about that because i believe GOD always beside me and always help and give everything that i need .
i admit that i've always complained about my problems.
i know myself, i'm not good in dealing with my emotion.
Sometimes i can be cheerful, but another day i can be a sensitive one.
One thing that i've to learn is how to avoid the urge to blow up everything
Now, i'm 21 years old. It's kinda weird if i still couldn't control my emotion or always thought like what children did.
yeahhh , the first point is i must be more mature .

the second is i have to MOVE ON !
hahahahaha
yaaaa ! HARUS !
maybe it sounds easy, i know it takes a longgggg time to kill my feelings ! *Eaaaa
but it just waste my time if i couldn't move on as soon as possible !
yeaah, keep FIGHTING !!!!

happiness, that's what i want !

Until now , i can't feel truly happy because of you.
yeah , even i always smile doesn't mean that i feel happy.
it was so painful !
i'm not sure i can be strong to face this situation
i've tried and tried, but do you know ?
it's not easy like what they said.
and if "apologizes" could change the situation like 1 years ago , i will apologize a thousand times !
I don't know , what will happen in my future life .
But for now , I still can't open my heart to another man
i know it's no a good choice, but i dont't want to hurt another man.
I always hurt the man who loved me just for a man i adore !
I know i'm wronged !
Yeah , let me learn from every lessons in my life
hopefully, i can be better ..

i dont know what will happen in my life , i dont know who will be my guardian angel *uhukuhukk* :))
but i hope someday all of my dreams come true , and i hope i can feel truly happy SOON !
no more pain , no more tears , live happily forever !