Minggu, 26 Mei 2013

I've made A big Decision

voilaa bloggers, it's been a long time i didn't post something on my blog..
how are youu guysss ?? hohooo
don't you curious about what's happened in my life ?
yeah , this time i just want to share about A big decision that i've made
it sounds too exaggerate , but this is real guys, i think this is the hardest decision that i had to make

After i got my bachelor's degree , i have plan to continue my study to get master degree
and yes , i fight for that ! i went to jakarta, i joined TPA test in Bapenas to full fill one of the requirements for registering master degree in ITB. with the minimum score is 470 ..
For me , that test was quite scary.. because i'm not smart enough , my IQ was not like a genius person. so before that test, i've prepare myself with studying ..
Alhamdulilah , i got the score above 470. yes i'm very grateful coz my score was not shameful :))

okey , go on to my next effort !
after got tpa score, i went to ITB with nabila and nadia
it was the first time i visitted ITB, what an awesome campus !
but at that time , i felt like i was the most foolish person in that place .HAHAHA
Trust me , it's totally different between UNSRI and ITB :))
my fisrt impression of ITB , it was GREAT !!
back to my purpose , i went to ITB for joining ELPT test. This is also a recuirement for registering master degree.. FYI , i apply for master degree in Information System , which is linear with my previous educational backgorund !!

finally , after i complete all of the requirements , i got this news !

GUE LULUS ITB SOBB !! hahahahaha


Meanwhile, i wasn't only do some test to continue my study but also do some test to got a job !!
Yap , GUE LABIL  !!!
I figth for what i am crazy about , and both of them are what i'm crazy about !!
I did some test to got a job , in telkomsel , BRI, BTN , and MANDIRI !!
you know what ? To be frank, as a fresh graduate , i have a desire to contribute myself in a big company where i can apply my skill and my knowlegde that i've got before !
In the bottom of my heart, i wanna make my family proud of me.
i wanna help my family's financial , i think if i directly continue my study , it's not easy for my parents to fund my study , coz now my brother was still in UGM to got his master degree and my sister wanna      be a college student in this year!!

This is the reason why GUE LABIL!!

like what i said earlier , i joined test in some big company , in telkomsel , bri , and BTN .. I FAILED !!
you know how was my feeling at that time ?? again and again , i feel like i'm the most unlucky person , even gue udah sampe tahapan yang jauh banget untuk setiap test !!!

Alhamdulilah , i still believe in God , i don't have an intention to kill my self just because i failed,HAHAHAHA
I try and try until i Got this unforgettabel message !!!


Voilaaaa , GUE LULUS ODP MANDIRI :))
Alhamdulilah
Such a sweet result after a big effort !!
Thanks God!

Gue seneng tapi gue juga bingung, gue pengen kerja , gue juga pengen S2 !!
Gue sadar , gue ini wanitaa sob , gini gini meskipun gue masih bisa dibilang abg labil , gue tau kodrat perempuan sob !! hohooo
gue tau resiko kerja di bank , tapi kesempatan gk dateng 2 kali sob , semua orang mengidamkan apa yang udah gue dapetin sekarang, masa iya gue ngelepasnya gitu aja :(( . di tiga perusahaan seblumnya gue gagal dan tuhan ngasih gue kelulusan disini , see ? tuhan ngasih gue kemudahan dan semoga ini yang terbaik..
this is what i call a big decision !! this is about my future , i have to make sure that my decision will lead me to have a beautiful life and brings me to success .. Aminnnn
hemmm , bismilah saya putuskan untuk bekerja dan "menunda" keinginan untuk lanjut kuliah !!
semoga gue bisa berkarir dan gue juga bisa jadi istri dan ibu yang hebat nantinya , insyaallah , aminnnnnn :)

*sometimes i can be mature enough ,hahaha















Sabtu, 10 November 2012

Alhamdulilah, akhirnya sarjana :)

Thanks God, Finally i got it
akhirnya dapet gelar sarjana juga
perjuangan kuliah selama 4,5 tahun, banyak bangetttttt cerita selama 4,5 tahun kuliah :D
ada susahnya, ada senengnya, ada sedihnya, ada capeknyaaa, asam manis palembang-layo, semuaaaanya udah gw lewatin
alhamdulilahhhh
ini semua buat kalian , Mama Papa :)
sedihhh , terharu banget rasanya :)


Makasi buat semua yang udah berperan penting dalam perjuangan kuliah gw, sahabat-sahabat gw, temen-temen, mantan pacar gw, mantan gebetan gw , hahaha pokoknya semuanyaaaa makasihh banyaakk :)
Makasih buat dosen-dosen yang udah ngebimbing , ngasih ilmu.
Semoga kedepannya saya bisa membawa nama baik almamater, amin



Minggu, 23 September 2012

regreting , desperate !!

i need a space !
this regreting totally makes me desperate !!!


i have no other choice , this is my decision , this is my fault ..
So?? yah let it go ..

Minggu, 09 September 2012

what future will brings


4 years ago , i was a new student in my beloved campus :P
but now i'm an old student but many people said that i'm still like a student in senior high school
aaw aw aw
*Joke

so , now i'm trying hard to get my bachelor's degree :)
Even "that's not mine yet" i've already thought about what will i do after I graduated ?
Continue study ? Getting Job ? or getting married?
eaaaaaaaaaa ,hahahahahhaha
no one knows what future will brings
But i have a sweet dream , Obviously, i wanna make my familiy proud of me :)
Yes , that's what everbody wants !

A lecturer ?
it seems to me a good idea to be a lecturer, yeah everybody knows that my father is a lecturer :)
And i'm totally proud to be his daughter :)
Ang from my point of view , being a lecturer is very interesting , especially for a woman :)
But i don't know what will happened into my life , we may have a plan , and we have to execute all of our plan to reach what we wanted :)
Believe in God , God will give us the best things for our life :)

And for you, my man...
Time will answer all of our pray
hope our dreams will come true
*with love*


Sabtu, 26 Mei 2012

LIKE STRANGER

Kinda weird
when i've to pretend like i didn't know you
Like yesterday, when i meet you
you seemed like stranger for me

Even i realize that all i have is just memories !!
you'd never know how much i'm falling
The pain is strong enough despite



Kamis, 17 Mei 2012

HAPPY GRADUATION One Of My Best :*

HAPPY GRADUATION MY BEST FRIEND :*
Congratulation, hope you'll get everything that you want

yeaahh , both of my best friends have already finished their study !
What about me??
I'm still trying to finish my final report, hopefully september will be mine

did you know that my parents always push me to graduate soon ?
For me , it makes me feel  so oppressed!
even i give many reasons , they didn't want understand

Burnt Out, it can be like this !
errrrrrrrrrrr , i'm so stressful right now
Trust me MOM DAD , i will do everything for you
But please , give your a bit understanding for me
Dont make me feel like i'm the one who's very stupid!
don't you know that now i'm so sad , so pleaseeeee don't compare me with everyone


Back to my first writing , look at this picture below...



Again and again , i just wanna say "CONGRATULATION for both of you , my best friends "
Jangannn ajaa gk dateng klo gw wisudaa september atau desemeber tahun ini hahahahaha
*HUG*KISS




Jumat, 11 Mei 2012

TRAGEDI SUKHOI

Yaps , Indonesia lagi-lagi berkabung
untuk kesekian kalinya terjadi kecelakan pesawat terbang !
wahh gw bner2 merinding
Cuba deh lo bayangin klo kita yang ada di posisi "penumpang" pesawat SUKHOI yang jatuh di sekitaran Gunung Salak, Bogor
Naudzubilahminzalik, itu pasti sangat menakutkan , menyeramkan !

itu satu peringatan juga buat kita , dan saya khususnya klo "ajal" udah dateng mau dimanapun , kapanpun , dlm kondisi apapun , gk ada yang bisa ngehindarinya !

hmm , balik lg ke tragedi SUKHOI .
Gw bner2 berharap ada keajaiban, klo salah satu penumpang bisa selamat.
Gw yang nonton beritanya aja sampai netesin air mata , apalgi keluargaaa yang ditinggalin
Subhanallah , klo Allah sudah berkehendak , secanggih apapun bikinan manusia tidak akan pernah sebanding dengan ciptaan Tuhan.
Tidak akan ada yang bisa menghindari kehendak TUHAN .

Kemarin sore , gw nonton berita di salah satu stasiun TV , gw ngliat anak dari salah satu penumpang SUKHOI, yang masih kecil2 bangetttt.. bner deh , gw gk bohong . gw bner2 miris ngliatnya .
yahh PASTINYA mreka berharap ayahnya selamat dari tragedi SUKHOI itu !
dan begitupun saya , gw sangatt berharap ada keajaiban yang ALLAH kasih .
AMIN