keep FIGHTING

Good evening my beloved followers :)
tonight i'm blogging with my beauty smile,hahahahaa
i'm very thankful to god who always give me everything that i need !
Now, i aware that i'm enough stupid if i just complained about "something" ..
i don't need to worried about that because i believe GOD always beside me and always help and give everything that i need .
i admit that i've always complained about my problems.
i know myself, i'm not good in dealing with my emotion.
Sometimes i can be cheerful, but another day i can be a sensitive one.
One thing that i've to learn is how to avoid the urge to blow up everything
Now, i'm 21 years old. It's kinda weird if i still couldn't control my emotion or always thought like what children did.
yeahhh , the first point is i must be more mature .

the second is i have to MOVE ON !
hahahahaha
yaaaa ! HARUS !
maybe it sounds easy, i know it takes a longgggg time to kill my feelings ! *Eaaaa
but it just waste my time if i couldn't move on as soon as possible !
yeaah, keep FIGHTING !!!!

happiness, that's what i want !

Until now , i can't feel truly happy because of you.
yeah , even i always smile doesn't mean that i feel happy.
it was so painful !
i'm not sure i can be strong to face this situation
i've tried and tried, but do you know ?
it's not easy like what they said.
and if "apologizes" could change the situation like 1 years ago , i will apologize a thousand times !
I don't know , what will happen in my future life .
But for now , I still can't open my heart to another man
i know it's no a good choice, but i dont't want to hurt another man.
I always hurt the man who loved me just for a man i adore !
I know i'm wronged !
Yeah , let me learn from every lessons in my life
hopefully, i can be better ..

i dont know what will happen in my life , i dont know who will be my guardian angel *uhukuhukk* :))
but i hope someday all of my dreams come true , and i hope i can feel truly happy SOON !
no more pain , no more tears , live happily forever !

wanna be someone better :)

Wah, hari ini gw belajar "sesuatu" dari "anak sma"
gw bner2 ngerasa malu, sampe umur gw 21 ini , gw blum ngerasa ngelakuin hal yang maksimal !
totally different sm anak sma itu , mereka udah bkin usaha "bimbel" buat anak2 SD n SMP
udah 2 tahun yang lalu malahan !
Mereka udah bisa "gaji" orang
mereka udah bisa menghasilkan uang sendiri sejak 2 tahun yang lalu , skr mereka udah kelas 3 SMA
berati udah dari jaman mereka kelas 1 SMA ???
AWESOME !
gw bner2 ngerasa "tertampar" dengan kejadian ini !

waktu gw seumuran mereka dulu , gw mah cuma seneng-seneng aja, gk pernah terpikir buat ngelakuin hal seperti yang mereka lakuin :(

Gw bner2 malu sm mreka , gw jg bner2 ngerasa "rugi" waktu bgt !
sampe umur gw 21 ini aja , gw ngerasa blum maksimal dalam mengeksplore apa yg ada di diri gw, ehh tapi gw juga gk tau apa yang bisa gw explore *LOL
gw blum ngrasa bermanfaat buat org bnyak !
ahhhh ! apa yg bisa gw perbuat skr !
Gw amat sangat mau melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat buat banyak orang , dan gw bner2 mau memanfaatkan "masa muda" gw ini dengan semaksimal mungkin!
yahh , at least buat bahan cerita gw sm "anak cucu" gw nanti , hahahaha

Yok buat tmn gw yang baca post gw ini , pleaseee ajakin gw donk buat ngelakuin hal-hal yang bermakna!
jangan cuma mkirin "fashion" , "a rich man" ! whatever , upsss :))

I wanna make much improvement in myself ! i dont wanna waste my time !
I wanna be someone better , and it MUST be happen..

i've already learned many things from my past !

Dan krena itu saya mau menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik lagi kedepannya :)