Alhamdulilah, akhirnya sarjana :)

Thanks God, Finally i got it
akhirnya dapet gelar sarjana juga
perjuangan kuliah selama 4,5 tahun, banyak bangetttttt cerita selama 4,5 tahun kuliah :D
ada susahnya, ada senengnya, ada sedihnya, ada capeknyaaa, asam manis palembang-layo, semuaaaanya udah gw lewatin
alhamdulilahhhh
ini semua buat kalian , Mama Papa :)
sedihhh , terharu banget rasanya :)


Makasi buat semua yang udah berperan penting dalam perjuangan kuliah gw, sahabat-sahabat gw, temen-temen, mantan pacar gw, mantan gebetan gw , hahaha pokoknya semuanyaaaa makasihh banyaakk :)
Makasih buat dosen-dosen yang udah ngebimbing , ngasih ilmu.
Semoga kedepannya saya bisa membawa nama baik almamater, amin

regreting , desperate !!

i need a space !
this regreting totally makes me desperate !!!


i have no other choice , this is my decision , this is my fault ..
So?? yah let it go ..

what future will brings

4 years ago , i was a new student in my beloved campus :P
but now i'm an old student but many people said that i'm still like a student in senior high school
aaw aw aw
*Joke

so , now i'm trying hard to get my bachelor's degree :)
Even "that's not mine yet" i've already thought about what will i do after I graduated ?
Continue study ? Getting Job ? or getting married?
eaaaaaaaaaa ,hahahahahhaha
no one knows what future will brings
But i have a sweet dream , Obviously, i wanna make my familiy proud of me :)
Yes , that's what everbody wants !

A lecturer ?
it seems to me a good idea to be a lecturer, yeah everybody knows that my father is a lecturer :)
And i'm totally proud to be his daughter :)
Ang from my point of view , being a lecturer is very interesting , especially for a woman :)
But i don't know what will happened into my life , we may have a plan , and we have to execute all of our plan to reach what we wanted :)
Believe in God , God will give us the best things for our life :)

And for you, my man...
Time will answer all of our pray
hope our dreams will come true
*with love*

LIKE STRANGER

Kinda weird
when i've to pretend like i didn't know you
Like yesterday, when i meet you
you seemed like stranger for me

Even i realize that all i have is just memories !!
you'd never know how much i'm falling
The pain is strong enough despite

HAPPY GRADUATION One Of My Best :*

HAPPY GRADUATION MY BEST FRIEND :*
Congratulation, hope you'll get everything that you want

yeaahh , both of my best friends have already finished their study !
What about me??
I'm still trying to finish my final report, hopefully september will be mine

did you know that my parents always push me to graduate soon ?
For me , it makes me feel  so oppressed!
even i give many reasons , they didn't want understand

Burnt Out, it can be like this !
errrrrrrrrrrr , i'm so stressful right now
Trust me MOM DAD , i will do everything for you
But please , give your a bit understanding for me
Dont make me feel like i'm the one who's very stupid!
don't you know that now i'm so sad , so pleaseeeee don't compare me with everyone


Back to my first writing , look at this picture below...

Again and again , i just wanna say "CONGRATULATION for both of you , my best friends "
Jangannn ajaa gk dateng klo gw wisudaa september atau desemeber tahun ini hahahahaha
*HUG*KISS

TRAGEDI SUKHOI

Yaps , Indonesia lagi-lagi berkabung
untuk kesekian kalinya terjadi kecelakan pesawat terbang !
wahh gw bner2 merinding
Cuba deh lo bayangin klo kita yang ada di posisi "penumpang" pesawat SUKHOI yang jatuh di sekitaran Gunung Salak, Bogor
Naudzubilahminzalik, itu pasti sangat menakutkan , menyeramkan !

itu satu peringatan juga buat kita , dan saya khususnya klo "ajal" udah dateng mau dimanapun , kapanpun , dlm kondisi apapun , gk ada yang bisa ngehindarinya !

hmm , balik lg ke tragedi SUKHOI .
Gw bner2 berharap ada keajaiban, klo salah satu penumpang bisa selamat.
Gw yang nonton beritanya aja sampai netesin air mata , apalgi keluargaaa yang ditinggalin
Subhanallah , klo Allah sudah berkehendak , secanggih apapun bikinan manusia tidak akan pernah sebanding dengan ciptaan Tuhan.
Tidak akan ada yang bisa menghindari kehendak TUHAN .

Kemarin sore , gw nonton berita di salah satu stasiun TV , gw ngliat anak dari salah satu penumpang SUKHOI, yang masih kecil2 bangetttt.. bner deh , gw gk bohong . gw bner2 miris ngliatnya .
yahh PASTINYA mreka berharap ayahnya selamat dari tragedi SUKHOI itu !
dan begitupun saya , gw sangatt berharap ada keajaiban yang ALLAH kasih .
AMIN

keep FIGHTING

Good evening my beloved followers :)
tonight i'm blogging with my beauty smile,hahahahaa
i'm very thankful to god who always give me everything that i need !
Now, i aware that i'm enough stupid if i just complained about "something" ..
i don't need to worried about that because i believe GOD always beside me and always help and give everything that i need .
i admit that i've always complained about my problems.
i know myself, i'm not good in dealing with my emotion.
Sometimes i can be cheerful, but another day i can be a sensitive one.
One thing that i've to learn is how to avoid the urge to blow up everything
Now, i'm 21 years old. It's kinda weird if i still couldn't control my emotion or always thought like what children did.
yeahhh , the first point is i must be more mature .

the second is i have to MOVE ON !
hahahahaha
yaaaa ! HARUS !
maybe it sounds easy, i know it takes a longgggg time to kill my feelings ! *Eaaaa
but it just waste my time if i couldn't move on as soon as possible !
yeaah, keep FIGHTING !!!!

happiness, that's what i want !

Until now , i can't feel truly happy because of you.
yeah , even i always smile doesn't mean that i feel happy.
it was so painful !
i'm not sure i can be strong to face this situation
i've tried and tried, but do you know ?
it's not easy like what they said.
and if "apologizes" could change the situation like 1 years ago , i will apologize a thousand times !
I don't know , what will happen in my future life .
But for now , I still can't open my heart to another man
i know it's no a good choice, but i dont't want to hurt another man.
I always hurt the man who loved me just for a man i adore !
I know i'm wronged !
Yeah , let me learn from every lessons in my life
hopefully, i can be better ..

i dont know what will happen in my life , i dont know who will be my guardian angel *uhukuhukk* :))
but i hope someday all of my dreams come true , and i hope i can feel truly happy SOON !
no more pain , no more tears , live happily forever !

wanna be someone better :)

Wah, hari ini gw belajar "sesuatu" dari "anak sma"
gw bner2 ngerasa malu, sampe umur gw 21 ini , gw blum ngerasa ngelakuin hal yang maksimal !
totally different sm anak sma itu , mereka udah bkin usaha "bimbel" buat anak2 SD n SMP
udah 2 tahun yang lalu malahan !
Mereka udah bisa "gaji" orang
mereka udah bisa menghasilkan uang sendiri sejak 2 tahun yang lalu , skr mereka udah kelas 3 SMA
berati udah dari jaman mereka kelas 1 SMA ???
AWESOME !
gw bner2 ngerasa "tertampar" dengan kejadian ini !

waktu gw seumuran mereka dulu , gw mah cuma seneng-seneng aja, gk pernah terpikir buat ngelakuin hal seperti yang mereka lakuin :(

Gw bner2 malu sm mreka , gw jg bner2 ngerasa "rugi" waktu bgt !
sampe umur gw 21 ini aja , gw ngerasa blum maksimal dalam mengeksplore apa yg ada di diri gw, ehh tapi gw juga gk tau apa yang bisa gw explore *LOL
gw blum ngrasa bermanfaat buat org bnyak !
ahhhh ! apa yg bisa gw perbuat skr !
Gw amat sangat mau melakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat buat banyak orang , dan gw bner2 mau memanfaatkan "masa muda" gw ini dengan semaksimal mungkin!
yahh , at least buat bahan cerita gw sm "anak cucu" gw nanti , hahahaha

Yok buat tmn gw yang baca post gw ini , pleaseee ajakin gw donk buat ngelakuin hal-hal yang bermakna!
jangan cuma mkirin "fashion" , "a rich man" ! whatever , upsss :))

I wanna make much improvement in myself ! i dont wanna waste my time !
I wanna be someone better , and it MUST be happen..

i've already learned many things from my past !

Dan krena itu saya mau menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik lagi kedepannya :)

HAPPY GRADUATION MY BEST FRIEND !

HAPPY GRADUATION MY BEST FRIEND !
MARISKA WIDIASTY

AKhirnyaa solmet gw yg satu itu , hari ini yudisium.
Gw ikutt senenggg syg , smga sukses ya buat kedepannya
bisa bikin orang tuanya bangga ! AMINN :)

oke , td gw dateng ke acra yudisiumnya solmet gw ituu.
bayangin aja , yudisium kk gw aja gw gk dateng , tp buat tu bocah gw dateng :*
dan eng ing enggg , gw ngrasa kayak lg ada di dunia lain
even , i knew some of her friends . but i dunno why i couldn't enyoy it .
gw lebih teramat sangat nyaman sama tmen2 kuliah gw ! PASTINYAAA :)

well , sbnernya gw ada rasa sedih ngliat "orang-orang" yang yudisium tadi , kenapa ?
karena GW BELUM WISUDAA coyyy !
Masih panjanggg bgt perjalanan gw buat nylesain kuliah gw !! DAMN !

Meskipun gw tau rejeki masing-masing udah diatur sm Tuhan :)

Tuhann , tolong berikan aku kesempatan dan kemudahan buat bkin orang tua aku bahagia ...
Tetep semangattt ya Ferizkaaa , September please be mine !

almost 2 years

tarik nafas dalam2 , lalu hembuskannnn ..huuuuuuuuu

lagi lagi hubungan yang gw jalin sm seseorang , harus "berhenti" disaat gw lg butuh seseorang yang ngasih gw semangat lebih !

Sedih ? PASTI !

Yang jelas gw rasain skr itu "KOSONG"

SEPI :'( aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!

Tapi gw yakin dsetiap kejadian yang gw alami dlm hidup gw pasti ada "hikmahnya" meskpun sakit yang gw rasa !

Life must go on ! Gw gk pernah nyesel kenal sama "kamu" . terima kasih banyakk buat semuanyaaa , maaf gw gk bisa jadi yang terbaik buat kamu ! maaf buat semua kesalahan yang pernah gw lakuin..

karena kamu orang baik , jadi gk ada rasa "benci" sedikit pun buat kamu :)

gw doain semoga kamu sukseeesss yaaa kk :)

gw YAKIN kamu PASTI suksess

Jangan pernah berubah , gw bener2 kagum sm sifat kamu

Semoga kamu bisa baca blog gw ini ya , krna gw blum ngucapin permintaan maaf langsung ke kamu..

Gw percaya ini yang terbaik buat KITA , pleaseee jgn pernah benci gw !